Agh I am in the worst mood today. I like can't shake this irritated feeling. It's probably because I have a crap load of work and haven't done any of it. And the fact that they canceled school in GEORGIA and EVERY school in NYC and pretty much the entire east coast except mine. It's really a fucking joke. Anyway...
I'm disappointed that we were slacking on the posts... but whatever... it is what it is... shit happens. And let it never happen again!
I feel totally fat and disgusting. I am grossed out by myself. I haven't been to the gym in over a week! Yes I was sick last week... and I still am sick as a matter of fact. I can't shake this cold. Tomorrow I have to observe at a school (omg I am observing the HOTTEST teacher with the most perfect butt... I love Tuesdays) so I won't be able to go to the gym either. So I HAVE to HAVE to HAVE to go Wed, Thurs, Fri and one day this weekend. I really really want to go to the ab classes BOTH Thurs and Fri.
Remember I told you I took pictures of my body? So the first week looks WAY better than the second week. Like my stomach got WAY bigger. The first picture actually looks like I have some definition and the second picture I look preggers. Agh I am really disgusted. I need to diet and work out hardcore and then I'll feel better. It's weird knowing that working out will make me feel better. I like it.
I'm glad I'm back to blogging even though I am making myself sick balancing my laptop on my fat disgusting ugly gut. I'm really depressed. I feel like I'm back to square one. Like all the work I've done in the past few weeks has been for nothing. I really don't like this feeling. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
Breakfast
Bagel (150 cal)
Cream cheese
Granola bar (90 cal)
Yogurt (90 cal) with granola
Lunch
Pasta salad probably 1 cup... not good calorie wise I'm sure
Agh bad... Chicken with bacon lettuce and tomato with 1 tb mayo on whole wheat pita
Snack
Apple with the mmmm peanut butter... wayy too much of it.
Dinner
Rest of chicken club (it was cut in thirds so dinner was 1/3)
Progresso Light.. the 0 point Weight Watcher one... I liked it! I thought it tasted pretty good and was really filling! These are going to be my new best friends.
And I haven't been smoking (W) so that's been helping with not eating so late... okay well it's 10:46 and I just ate dinner... but it WILL help with not eating so late.
Here's to making this week a good one...
Peace out,
Kate
don't you DARE say like you feel like all the work you've done the past two weeks was for nothing! you've been doing a great job, and we both just hit a road bump... ugh, bumps makes me think of my enormous fat "baby bump." anyway, be happy knowing that we can go a week without doing this and just jump right back in. and we are both kind of excited about going back to the gym!! now, would you have felt that same excitement two weeks ago?? no, you wouldn't have. so we have improved. don't get down on yourself.
ReplyDeleteThank you... really. This is why this blog is saving my life...or saving my fat... or getting rid of my fat... or something. Thank you.
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