I miss the gym

I feel like crap.  Partly because I have a cold.  But mostly cause I haven't been to the gym in three days.  I feel fat.  And nasty.  And gross.  Ew.  I feel like whatever I've accomplished is going away already.  What a horrible feeling.  And I've been thinking that maybe I got sick cause I was like totally run down with everything so I have been eating a little more than I would.  And that's making me feel nasty.

What I ate today:

Breakfast

Special K w/skim

Lunch

South Beach protein bar 140 cal

Bag of Smartfood Popcorn...  okay so it was a big bag... and I thought I would eat half then and half later but no... I ate the whole thing in one go.  400 fuckin calories.  Agh.

Snack

Granola bar stolen from my roommate 180 cal

Dinner

Agh... I ordered Chinese (even though what I got was really thai)

Pad thai w/shrimp (I hate shrimp but this was the only pad thai they had and I love love love pad thai but this was so fuckin nasty...  I only ate a little bit...I really wish I didn't get it... it wasn't worth the money... it was so gross I know I'm not going to eat it again and it's not worth even eating it again cause of the calories...agh)

2 spring rolls

What did I eat yesterday?  Oh God yesterday was a horrible day.  The class at the elementary school was horrible... like you wouldn't even believe what goes on there.  I walked out on the class because I said they were being too bad for me.  This little boy was like "No Ms. Katherine don't go I will miss you" God that makes me want to cry.  I also got in trouble for using the girls room that the students use.  This teacher was like "You can't use that bathroom because they might say oh she exposed herself to me." I was like come the fuck on.  It was embarrassing.  She lectured me for like a long time.  I fucking got it lady.  Agh.  And then I had to give a speech.  It was just not a good day.  Not that any of this has to do with what I ate...  okay what did I eat yesterday...

Breakfast

South Beach protein bar 140 cal

Lunch

Fiber One bar 140 cal (best I could do cause I got stuck grading spelling tests)

Second Lunch

Salad with some veggies and pasta salad and one egg and way too much Ranch

Dinner

Smart Ones lasagna 290 cal

An orange

I think that's it

Whats worse is that I didn't do any kind of exercise at all today... not even walking like at all.  I walked like 10 minutes if that to the subway going to work and then took cabs everywhere else I went.  I even took a cab home from Chelsea Piers after dropping my kid off there.  A twenty freakin dollar cab ride.  My reason was three fold; 1. I felt really sick and tired 2. I was wearing a black dress with red tights and then realized that these are the colors of the Bloodz so I got really paranoid and didn't feel like I should be walking around Harlem like this 3. My feet are majorly blistery and I could barely walk and my shoes are apparently too big and were literally falling completely off my foot with every 5th step.  And I thought that since I wasn't going to spend money on eating and weed this week that the twenty bucks could go towards a cab instead of the bad stuff... even though I did spend money on food tonight.  Agh...  I can't let it bother me.  It's gone I did it it's over I'll survive.

I just saw my roommate and she's like "Oh we have a date tomorrow!" We're supposed to go to the 9:15 class but there's no way I'm going.  I just took a Nyquil which means I'm going to be hung over and this is my one day to sleep in.  I hope I actually sleep in and don't wake up at 9 like I have been doing on my other days to sleep in.  Wow is this making any sense?  Agh and I am even more pissed now about the money I spent on food and the cab cause I had to take off work tomorrow to go to that woman's house who's wedding I'm in to go over the fuckin Dominican choreographed dance I'm going to have to learn and perform at the wedding.  No... I'm NOT kidding.  

Ew I feel so fat.