What is wrong with me?

Katie,

I had a total total breakdown in the gym today.  I went to sleep at like 2am but when I woke up I felt energetic so I went to the gym... did 15 minutes on the treadmill... stretched before the class.  Then during the class I just couldn't get it together.  I like couldn't coordinate my movements and felt really off.  Then I started to get dizzy.  It's cause I didn't have enough sleep.  So I basically felt like shit.  I think this is a new teacher... and she works you really hard... and this was my second class with her and both times people started leaving the class early cause they were dying.  So I was like ... fuck it I'm leaving.  So I put my step away... went to the bathroom and just totally broke down crying.  No real reason for crying...  other than I was disappointed in myself for not being able to make it through the class.  So.... I decided not to be a quitter and go back!  So I splashed some water on my face...  got my step back and did the best I could for the rest of the class.  By the time it was over I was having a really difficult time containing my tears.  I felt like in a daze.  I didn't know if I should hide in the bathroom stall or what but I ended up just sitting in the locker room like a weirdo for like 10 minutes trying not to let the tears stream down my face.  Then on the walk home I was like... I seriously cannot be the fucking crying white girl... and I was walking like I was in slooooooow moooootiooooon.  And people were looking at me weird.  And I know I wasn't being paranoid.  It could have been that I was walking so slow... or that I looked like I was going to cry... or kill someone... or the fact my face was like a purpley blue.  This has to be hormonal right?  

Food today:

Breakfast

Protein bar 140 cal

Lunch

2 veggie burgers on a pita (370 cal)

Snack

Orange

Banana

Yogurt (80 cal)

Dinner

Massaman Chicken from Fresh Direct (all it says is less than 500 cal)

Not going to the gym tomorrow... have to go to the elementary school.  But I've done my three days.  But I'm feeling bad about the fact that I think I've only been to the gym 4 days once since we started this thing.  So I'm going on Friday.  Since I changed my schedule with the observations at the school so I can go to the Tummy Tuck class I think Mon, Tue, Wed, Fri will work for me so thats what Ima do.  And I like going to the classes better than working out by myself.  It's obviously a much more intense workout.  When I was getting the orientation of the gym when I first signed up the dude was like "These women come only for the classes and it's no good cause you need to do some strength training also" and for some reason I acted like he was an all knowing being and listened to him.  But going to the classes work for me.  Theyre fun (when I don't have freak outs).  

I'm going to try and call you.  I haven't talked to you in two days.  Not liking that.

-Kate