Grrrrrr

Aghhhhh what an irritating ugly day.  I woke up and realized that not only did I have to take a photograph and then write about it... I had to read the text that I had to base it all on.  And then I realized I didn't have the book.  Then I realized I didn't have the two articles either.  Then I realized I was fucked.  

So I decided to pass on yoga today because my priority was to do my school work and knew that I wouldn't have enough time if I went to the only yoga class possible.  I could have gone to the one after class but heard that it was always jammed packed and realistically I wouldn't go.  So I went to the gym this morning.  I did 45 hardcore minutes on the treadmill.  I think I did 3 miles... maybe just under.  I burned over 300 calories and I ran fast for three minutes.  The whole time I was going really fast at an incline.  I was sweaaaaaating.  It elt really good.  I was trying to use my frustration and bitterness in the work out.  Oh yea... my bitterness came from the fact that before I worked out I got on the scale and learned that I had gained a pound.  I was so excited to finally not have to use that evil 150 slider but decided to start with it so I'd be even more excited when it told me that was too much so I'd have to slide it back.  But it didn't.  In fact... it was too light.  Agh it was horrible.  But I used it.  After the treadmill I did 3 sets of 20 on the chest and bicep machine...  then 3 sets of 15 (my arms were shaking) on the chest press (I think it's called) and then I did 3 sets of 10 with 10lb weights to work my biceps.  I want to look like I could kick someones ass... and actually be able to... but never have to utilize that ability.  I thought that maybe the scale was wrong the first time so I weighed myself again. When I got on this (I am not kidding) 3 foot 9 humpty dumpty of a woman started screaaaaming at me something in Spanish.  She was telling me that I have to go on it with my shoes on.  Whenever people talk to me in Spanish I always get thrown and understand what they're saying but forget how to respond.  So I did as best I could to say, "Oh, with my shoes on?" and she said yea but I just continued without my shoes because I wasn't about to put them on and take them off again.  Then I felt awkward and she started getting undressed so I bolted out of there.   Anyway it was still 151.  

I am watching the Biggest Loser btw.  I usually wait for a lazy Saturday when Bravo plays all the reruns in a row.  These shows always make me hungry.  I don't like this Jillian bitch.  I saw her on Kathy Griffin and she acted like Kathy should know who she was and she's no one.  She has a bitch face.  I am such a bitch... but so is she probably.

What did I eat today?

Breakfast (before gym):

- Pink Lady apple (you have GOT to get these)

Lunch:

- California Veggie Burger (what did I say it was 210 cal?)

-Whole wheat pita (110)

-Some carrots cut up in it (I don't count the calories of fruit and vegetables cause I need those)

-Some of that dill sauce... probably at most 50 calories

Snack:

-Orange

-Banana

-Lite and Fit yogurt

This amazed me cause my stomach was growling and this actually satisfied me... it's great

Dinner:  (My goal for next week should be to stop eating before a certain time.  It's not gonna work this week but this is something I HAVE to work on)

- Trader Joes Sweet and Sour Chicken... about 400 cal

- One of those chicken tenders (50 calories)

- 130 calories worth of french fries...  I had a weak moment and decided to make the serving size of these frozen french fries I had bought a while ago.  130 calories was like 10 fries.  That's sad.  

I did bad with dinner.  Ew I'm upset with myself over it.  I didn't have many options but I didn't have to have the chicken tender or the french fries.  I'm feeling guilty.  

I really really don't want to go to yoga tomorrow.  I knew if I skipped a day I wouldn't want to go back.  But I will.  Especially after tonight's dinner.  

And this totally doesn't give it justice but this is the hill to my place that I always talk about

It's because it curves that it looks less high than it is.  It may not look that big but it IS trust me.  Look at the cars to get a better idea .  I could only get part of it in the top pic because of the sun glare.  But that sucker goes way up like .25 mile.