So I just got off the phone with you. And I missed you so much I had to write to you here. It's Friday night 8:51pm the day before Valentine's Day...and I'm here...in my room.... alone. It's okay. I'm feeling really good about myself. Plus... I'm boycotting holidays this year. Select holidays. But that's a whole different convo. I have to go mushy for a minute... Thank you for all your positive feedback and support. It REALLY helps. This all really helps. I just feel like I'm fuckin doing it. It's great. Anyway.
I went to the gym this morning... did 15 minutes (or was it 10... I think I aimed for 15 but the class was starting so it ended up at 10) on the treadmill and then did the Triple Fat Burner class. I liked this class way more than the Core on the Ball. The instructor was this like 4'5 Latino spitfire with one missing front tooth. It was classic. I need to find out his name. Anyway... it was like basically tae bo. He made me kick his hand pad thingies and said they were muy bueno. He emphasized the 'muy.' OMG he made us run three laps at the end and I tried to stand there like maybe I would be invisible and drink my water because I just don't run but of course we made eye contact, so he proceeded to chase me around the gym really really fast. So I RAN away from him cause I was scared of what he might do to me if I didn't. I was the only white girl in the class... well I started out white... by the end of it I was BRIGHT red. And I feel like everyone after the class gets together in the locker room and says, "Wow it's true white girls are really not coordinated" cause I am NOT apparently. It was great though this African woman in front of me was like CRYING. And we kept mouthing to eachother "I'm DYING!" It was funny. I'm only mentioning races of people to put these experiences in context... plus I thrive on multiculturalism. So I was going to stay to do some arm work and some more cardio but I really thought I was going to throw up. Which was a great thing because it made me disgusted by the thought of Dunkin Donuts. Woohoo I went to the gym and totally ruin it with Dunkin Donuts! Oh Dunkin Donuts I love you. I love you and I hate you. Anyway.... I didn't throw up. I got home talked to my Grammy (all about the woman with the fucking 8 babies and how she was so surprised that she didn't spot the fact that she had her lips done) and took a shower and had some lunch. Okay... what I ate today:
Before gym
- rest of yogurt from yesterday
- rest of bag of fiber pita things from yesterday
Before work
- bag of Trader Joes organic brown rice
- 2 Chicken tender things (150 calories... I am NOT kidding they are the shizzassss)
- Cup of green tea
Dinner
-Salad... mix greens with onions, grilled chicken, chick peas, and broccoli and Russian dressing...way too much dressing but he mixed it in and he was like "Is this enough" and I said a little more and that ended up being way too much.... so now I know.
-Yogurt with granola. Who knew me and yogurt would have such a love affair
- A little bit of melon
- Rice Krispie (it is with a 'k' righ?) treat
And I just want to reiterate... why the FUCK is Harlem so hilly? And who forgot to tell me? I was just introduced to hills and stairs....hills and stairs.
It's weird cause I feel like I should be following a DIET... like eat such and such and this and that so maybe that's why I'm scared this is all not having an effect (affect? effect? I really need to learn and understand the difference between the two) but I have to remind myself I am eating HEALTHY for like the first time ever. But I still feel like I'm eating a lot.
Oh yea... I've had 5 cigarettes today. I have 2 left in this pack. Oh yea... I just switched to American Spirits (I heard that's what Obama smokes... or they could have just have been being clever). Because the idea of chemicals in my body makes me sick. Why the fuuuck do I smoke? I feel like I'm a slave to it. Agh. OMG am I writing too much? Do you think I'm fat? Haha now I know the answer to that is YES, we think you're fat!
Alright I'll be done. Planning on going to tomorrow's Tummy Tuck and Butt class and doing 30 minutes cardio before and then doing arms or something else after before work. Oh yea... I played Wii golf for like an hour today, does that count as a sport? OMGGG this is long.
Bye
P.S. Now it's 1:54am and I'm still awake for some reason. Looks like the gym is for sure not happening for me tomorrow after all. In place of the gym I plan to walk to work.. 2.4 miles and a MAJOR hill. Oh yea and I'm thinking that I'm gonna stop smoking everything Monday and it order to help it get out of my body I'm gonna do Bikram Yoga... I've always wanted to do it and theyre having a special 20 bucks for 7 consecutive days I will have to go every single day. I'll work it out.
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