Bikini Challenge??

Dear Kate,

So I've gained about 10 lbs over the past few months. That is just bad. Ten pounds on a girl is realllllly noticeable. The fat is even on my face. And last Saturday night I caught a back view glimpse of underwear-ed self in John's full length mirror. And the weight gain proof was in the pudding... or in this case, cottage cheese. I have cellulite. I used to have a few dimples here and there, but now it's full fledged cellulite. If I don't want to look at it, there's no way anyone else wants to see it. Poor John.

And that brings me to another thing. A girl at my work, who might I add has the largest ass I have ever seen (but that's totally acceptable bc she's black. no fair.), told me I need to "get rid of allll this" while pointing to my stomach. She said, "no guy wants a fat girlfriend." Ouch. Unfortunately, I couldn't be mad bc the bitch was right.

Alright so here are my goals:

- Lose weight (duh.) Maybe 15-20 lbs? I say 15, but then again, 10 lbs ago I wasn't happy with my weight, so what is an extra 5 lbs going to do? Let's make it 20.

- Eat better. This entails dealing with the late-night hunger monster that lives in my pantry. He's usually pushing hard drugs like Captain Crunch and Cheeze-Its. Also, I babysit during the day, and they have really good junkfood like Goldfish (my fave) and mini candybars (the devil). I've got to learn to say no.

- Tone up. I really want to walk around the lake this summer in a bikini sans tank top. My softest (that sounds so much nicer than "fattest" or "lumpiest") area is my stomach. It's just gross. And the fat that laps over the bra on my back? Grosssss.

Okay, so we started today. This is what I ate:

Lunch:
(i woke up too late for breakfast.. it was my day off:)
- A lean pocket
- A mini-bagel with light peanut butter
- An apple
- The devil chocolate chip cookie (snack)

Dinner:
- A spinach salad with boiled eggs (I took out the yolks), feta and light ceaser dressing.
- Another lean pocket.
- Two bowls of cereal. Cheerios and Coco Peebles.

So I really eff'ed up on the cereal. I'm glad I ran out of milk, bc I probably would've gone back for more. Oh, and it was fat free milk..

I worked out tonight for the first time in a while. I ran ... hahaha.. walked uphill for 50 mins. I burned 400 calories and did a total of 3.2 miles. I also did crunches and did a few arm exercises with 5lb weights. Overall, I did an hour.

So, knowing that I'm not going to have time to go to the gym tomorrow, I am aiming for an early morning workout. I know it may not happen, but I thought if I typed it, maybe that would help.

Damn this is long. Promise the others won't be :)

-Fattie Katie