Afraid to get on scale tomorrow

Katie,

My brain still hurts from yesterday.  Two exams x four hours each = not fun.  But even though I was kind of thinking I would be easy on myself and not concentrate so much on what I was eating but just focusing on getting myself through the tests...  but I actually did really well yesterday!  But then today... I made up for it.

So I got lost coming off the subway after the test and ended up walking about 2 miles.  So that was good.

Yesterday (Saturday) I ate:

Breakfast

-2 packets of oatmeal (260 cal)

- Apple

Lunch

- 6 inch grilled chicken sandwich with provolone, peppers and oil and vinegar from Subway

-Orange

Dinner

- 6 inch of the Subway sandwich

Then I somehow managed to not fall asleep and forced myself to have some kind of social life and went to karaoke with my Hair Fairies peeps.  And had 4 Bud Lights.  I could have had like 10... but ran out of cash.  

Today I ate:

Breakfast

-Amy's organic enchiladas (250 cal)

Lunch

(was going to have kraft mac and cheese but didn't...cause at first it said 410 cal but then I realized that was per serving and there are 3 servings in the box!  Then I still kind of wanted it but the thought disgusted me... I was proud... eating that shit used to be nothing to me)

- Whole wheat pita (110 cal) with some chicken salad I stole from one of my suitemates I don't know which (btw the pita was moldy and the chicken salad was 4 days past the sell by date....  maybe I'll get sick and throw up and lose a pound)

Dinner (here's where I'm bad)

-Soy Chicken Roti  (which even though it's vegan it seems fattening)

-Chick peas 

Only ate half of that meal so yay I don't have to buy dinner tomorrow!

-French Fries (I only ate 1/4 of the container... 1/2 fell in the garbage...no joke I felt like it was a sign to stop eating them... so I saved 1/4 for a french fry moment this week)

-3 fried eggplant fritters

You know the day after you drink you crave fried food?  So that's what happened.  And since I danced to karaoke for hours and walked 2 miles and went through the hell of the tests and ate really well yesterday I'm okay with my fried food decisions.  

Now... the Oscars...  I could win 300 bucks!  Which would buy me like two days worth of groceries (not really but DAMN this is rough).

I have M&M's I bought the other day and can't stop thinking about them.  I don't even want them or feel the need for chocolate...  it's just that they're there... taunting  me.

Planning on doing gym tomorrow...but I have to have to have to go to my friend's house to do math all day.  Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Oh goals for the up coming week:

1. No cigarettes!

2. No weed!  (can't do either really cause I'm broke as a joke... and I don't think you can buy weed on a credit card yet)

3. Walk to and/or from work at least once this weekend

4. Make it to that class Triple Fat Burner class Friday morning!  And shoot for another class this week

5. Cut down on calories

6. Eat nothing after 9pm (I know that's late but I get home from class until 7:45 except for tomorrow I get home after 10 so tomorrow probably won't count for this goal)

7.  Gym 4x

8. Be more aware of my caloric intake.  I want to have about 1000 and 1500 calories a day.

One,

Kate