I'm still in!

I'm here Kate, I'm here!! I'm just not good at keeping up on the weekends.

Here's what I ate on Sat:

Lunch:
- 1/2 a corndog
- 3 grilled chicken sliders (they were SUPER small, I swear!) (Okay, I had ONE fried one too)
- hot tamales

Dinner:
- Potato Soup (320 cal)
- grilled cheese (210 cal)

And later on in the night I had Ben and Jerry's Frozen Yogurt.. like 1/2 the pint. It was 280 cal I think?? I don't remember, and it's loooong gone now so I can't look at the container. I know that's not very good, but I had to have something. And it's lowfat.

Sunday:

Lunch (didn't have time for breakfast):
- P butter sandwich
- Sunchips (one serving)
- Granola bar

Snack:
- Fiber one bar

Dinner:
- Potato soup (same as above)
- Grilled Cheese
and I finished the rest of the fro yo, so that was another 280 or so..

Today I worked out and I reallllly didn't want to. I was feeling down and I knew it was the only thing that would make me feel better, so I just did it. I did 10 mins on the eliptical and seriously almost died. I was sweating soooo much. I really think I do it wrong somehow, bc other people aren't dying on it like I am. Even the big people. I did the hill setting, and according to the calorie counter, I burned just as much on that machine in 1o mins as I do on the treadmill (100 cal.) So, FUCK the eliptical. But really, I was sweating so much that it had to be a better workout than the treadmill. Anyway, I did 10 mins on the eliptical and 30 on the treadmill.

..And this guy got on the treadmill by me and smelled so bad that I almost got off and did another machine. It was nasty. He smelled like week-old moldy socks. I was seriously breathing through my mouth. He finally got off after like 5 mins. .. 5 mins of smelly hell.

Here's what I ate today:

Woke up late so I had a brunch.. I know, it's so bad to be skipping breakfast. I'm going to work on it.

Brunch:
- Egg and cheese sandwich (same as grilled cheese, as far as calories, but with two egg whites added.)
- "dipped" granola bar

Post-workout snack:
- R. fat cheese its, waaay too many.

Dinner:
- 1/2 a turkey sandwich from the deli on whole wheat bread
- salad with a tiny bit of ceasar dressing (probably 1/2 tablespoon) and feta cheese
- bag of baked lays with hummus. I didn't even finish the whole bag, or the 1/2 sandwich.. weird.
- frozen yoplait yogurt

So, today was a good day as far as eating and working out. Wow, I don't think I've said that in a looong time. OH! I forgot, I did arm exercises at the gym. Three different machines, 3 sets of 10 each.

Goodnight Kate!

(Oh, and don't act like they don't have internet in Long Island)

I will always be fat

That's what I feel like.  My stomach is huge.  It's way bigger than last week.  What the fuck is wrong with me?

No gym today.  Planned on going to two classes.  Was too tired for the early one so slept a little more and ended up sleeping through both.  It was pouring rain all day and was really dark out so I had a hard time getting up.  I suck.  

Agh what I ate today:

Breakfast:

Total w/skim 200 cal

Activia fat free 70 cal

Lunch

Amy's Organic Shepards Pie 160 cal

Dinner #1

Bowl of Cheerios w/skim 200ish cal

2 bananas

Math class snack

Agh... it was my friends birthday and I felt bad she had to spend it in math class with me so I brought in candy.  And she brought in cookies.  Mother fucker....  so I had 

Three bite sized Twix

One bite size Milky Way

2 cookies.  

Dinner #2... which I had a freakin 11pm not good.

Amy's Organic Alphabet soup 160 cal

4 crackers stolen from roommate 70 cal

I feel so disgusting.  I am for shizz going to the gym tomorrow.  Then I'm going home for Spring Break.  So I probably won't be able to post for the next week.  Not that you care.  Not that you are at all involved in this blog anymore.  Not like you're even reading this.  

I'm going to try and go to the gym when I'm home.  I got the "gold" membership so I can use the Lucielle's there and my aunt apparently goes everyday (yea right I don't believe her) so I'm gonna make her do a class or two with me.  I hope I don't run into any fucking bitches from high school.  I know I will.  I hope they're fat.  

Oh, incidentally...  I bought my friend the special peanut butter as a little birthday gift.  I can't wait to hear what she thinks of it.  I also bought a jar for my aunt for Easter.  And I bought another jar that I was going to give to my mom... but I don't think my mom would appreciate it.  So I kept it for myself.  Whatever you can judge me.  I am full.  I am full.  I need to tell myself I'm full so I don't go ahead and eat the whole jar.  I know if I have one spoonful the entire jar will be gone.  That canNOT happen again.

Okay... Long Island, here I come.  I feel like I'm going to be so embarrassed like my family is expecting me to be like anorexic thin and I'm still a fatty fat fat fatty.  AGH!

Can't stop eating

I feel fat.  Like my stomach will not go down.  What I ate today:

Breakfast

Special K w/skim

Fat free Activia 70 cal

Tall skim double latte 150 cal

Lunch

I was totally pressured into eating by the lady I work for

6 healthy nuggets... roughly 250 cal

Ketchup agh maybe 2 tb

Mozzarella stick I think 120 cal

Some red pepper

Some grapes

1/2 cup Ben and Jerrys froyo 180 cal

Snack

Strawberries

Some cantaloupe hardly any

One bagel bite

Dinner

Smart Ones 290

Whole wheat pita 140

Yogurt w/granola 200

No gym today... but it was a gor-ge-ous out today and apparently their apartment building has a playground so I took them out to play for like an hour and 15 minutes.  We played an intense game of tag and I made sure to actually run during it.  We also had a push up contest.  I did 20 (2 sets of 10).  Leila made sure to do 21.  Biotch.  I also did a lot of arm work while I watched them on the play... I did that thing where you put your legs out and like dip bending your arms.  Then I did it the other way like doing some chest presses.  Oh yea we also did like 50 jumping jacks.  Leila wanted to have a sit up contest but that's where I drew the line.  So at least I got some kind of exercise today.

I was supposed to hang out with this guy and we were going to smoke but I told him to forget it.  He wasn't gonna make it here til 9:30 (CPT that means 11 earliest) and I have to make it to the gym tomorrow and then write like 4 papers and I knew that would never happen if I smoked.  Plus I didn't want to smoke outside because someone got mugged outside my building last week so the po has been patrolling like crazy and I definitely didn't want to smoke in my room or have him in my room at all.  And my VH1 reality shows are on tonight.  I'm such a loser.  But at least I'm a loser that's not getting high.  

There is pizza in my refrigerator and it is KILLING me trying to resist eating it.  My roommate offered some to me yesterday.  I looked it up....  it's 360 for one slice.  Is it worth it?  I ate SO much today but I'm still hungry.  Like even after that dinner my stomach is growling.  And a freakin apple is not going to cut it.  OMG I can not eat that pizza.  I want it sooooo bad.  Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.  Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.  Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. 

I didn't eat the pizza.  I had 120 cal worth of raisins and I'm about to eat an orange.  Why am I so hungryyyyy?  I'm gonna try chugging some water.

Okay I have now updated this like 5 times.  I ate the orange.... AND a bowl of Special K............AND a Fiber One bar.  What is wrong with me?

All dressed and nowhere to go

Katie -

I'm pissed.  I got all ready in my slutty dress and now I don't even think I'm gonna go out.  The one coworker I was depending on to go out so I wouldn't have to go out by myself with the other idiot coworker now is going home.  So I've been dressed for like an hour and have just been laying here starring at the ceiling.  I'm waiting to hear from another friend... not a friend... a friend of the idiot coworker who wanted to hang out cause now it's late and I don't want to be walking around here by myself so I want him to come get me but now I haven't heard from him either.  Agh.  I should just go to bed.  What a waste of makeup.

I went to the gym this morning.  Was too tired to make it to the first class but I went to the second.  I felt like it was a waste of time.  That teacher seriously makes everyone do these gyrations and basically hump the ball and the air the entire time.  In addition to not wanting to hump anything in a room full of 40-60 year old Latina women, I didn't feel like it was working my abs at all like it was allegedly supposed to.  I then did 30 minutes on the treadmill... burned 300 cal there.  

What I ate:

Breakfast

South Beach protein bar 140 cal

Lunch

Veggie burger 110 cal

Whole wheat pita 140 cal

One slice munster freaking 86 cal... I should have checked the cal before I ate it duh

Yogurt with granola like 110 cal

Snack

Mozzarella stick

Banana

Dinner

4 healthy chicken nuggets 200 cal

Cantolope

A bite of organic ravioli 

Wow I don't know what to do.  I don't know if I should just put on my pajamas or continue to wait here with my slutty dress on.  I don't have a full length mirror so I have to take pics of myself.

   

I guess I'll save it for this party I have on the 17th.  My horoscope said "Prepare to have something rock your world on the 17th."  I'm prepared.

Agh this SUUUUCKS...  putting on my pjs like a loser.

Kate

P.S. I sat home and rotted and ate.  Bowl of Special K, yogurt, South Beach bar.  De to the pressed

Survived through 2 classes

Dear Katie,

I did two classes this morning!!!!!!!!!  First one was Triple Fat Burner and the second an abs class.  My ear got clogged again at the beginning of the first class and I almost stopped... but didn't.  Woohoo.  I just ignored it and pushed through.  

Then I went to work... bought some clothes while I waited for my girl at her appointment.  Trying clothes on is fun now haha.  Well no not entirely.  It'd be funner if I actually had money.  I got a pair of skinny jeans... size 7 (did you know odd number sizes mean they're for juniors?)... they're too big in the waist... but they were awesome and the only ones they had so I got them.  And I got a totally slutty dress that I'm going to rock out and act like a total slut tomorrow.  I'm going to ACT like a slut and flirt with lots of boys... not be a slut.  I need a date for this f-ing wedding.  ANYWAY... I also took a short walk through Central Park... maybe 15 min.  Now I'm going to sit on my ass and watch tv the rest of the night.

Have you ever seen the commercial... I think it's for Nutrasystem... with the guy and he goes, "Do you want big pants?  Try this diet!"  It bothers me tremendously.  Why would you want big pants?  Wouldn't the goal there be to just be able to wear a smaller size pant?  I'm gonna write them a letter.

I am sooo gassy.  I googled reasons for being very gassy.  I learned A LOT about farts.  www.heptune.com/farts.html VERY interesting stuff.  I wanted to know if the gas was brought on because I've been working my abs more.  But no... there doesn't seem to be a correlation between getting tighter abs and gas.  Nor is there one between weight loss and gas.  Disappointing.  

What I ate today:

Breakfast

Fiber One bar 140cal

Lunch

Amy's Organic Lasagna 310

Banana

Snack

Apple

Wheat Thins reduced fat... way too many.  

Dinner

Whole wheat pita 140 cal

One grilled chicken breast

Like 1/2 cup 2& cheese

Like 1/4 cup bake beans

I am stufffffed.  Probably all the wheat thins.  Dammit.

I'm shooting for two classes at the gym again tomorrow.  I took Sudafed to hopefully combat any ear popping issues tomorrow.  They're making me feel buzzed....so I'll fall asleep nice and early.  Still mad gassy....almost to the point of ridiculously gassy. 

47 dayssssssss!

One,

Kate

Coughing is a good ab workout

I just got back from the gym. I did 40 mins on the treadmill at the highest hill setting.. The incline ranged between 9.0- 13.5. But I walked at a normal pace bc I wanted to take it slow while I'm still coughing my lungs out. Anyway, I burned 400 cal.

What I ate:

Breakfast:
- 1/2 fiber one bar

Lunch:
- A Roly Poly rolled sandwhich on a whole wheat tortilla .. It has a chicken salad like mixture in it w/ romaine lettuce, basil, tomatoes, avacado and pinapple. The mayo in the chick probably isn't good for you, but they kind of jipp you on the chicken anyway, so there isn't that much of it. Oh my God I need to learn to shup up. Why are you still reading this?
- bag of baked lays

Post workout snack:
- pbutter toast

Dinner:
... havent had it yet, but I'm going to this place that has a really good grilled chicken ceasar sandwich. and I'll get a side salad with it instead of a mound of delicious fries. ugh I hate my life.

Okay no I don't hate my life, but why can't I just be skinny and eat french fries all day?

Happy Friday!
-Katie

Ohh Thursdays....

So no gym today... Thursdays are my day at the elementary school.  This fucking kid ran from me.  Agh so he comes into his music class late like a maniac flailing his arms and then sits and immediately gets up and is like "I'm going to the bathroom" and I'm like "You can't just come in and out as you please and he's like "Yes I can" so I got up like I was gonna kick his ass and he just took off running.  And then I was walking to his main classroom to tell his teacher and I see him down the hall and he's fucking laughing and like taunting me and I'm like "Keep laughing when security comes for you" so he just took off running again.  I realized I can never wear heels to this school... in the event I need to run after another little mother fucker.  Anyway this has nothing to do with my weight loss... other than he raised my blood pressure so much my heart was pounding and I swear I thought of you in that moment cause I felt like I just ran 10 minutes on the treadmill I was so worked up and wished I wasn't wearing heels cause I would have run after him and caught his ass and that would have been my workout of the day.   You would not fucking believe the shit that goes down at this school.  I think the principal who placed me in this class is trying to scare me out of teaching.  But she doesn't know how hardcore I am.

Anyway what I ate:

Breakfast

Total Raisin Bran w/skim 200ish cal

Lunch

Apple

Fiber One bar 140 cal 

(like I said.. teacher's don't get to eat lunch... I was scarfing this down in between giving like 100 high 5's to this boy who had to stay in from recess to take reading quizzes and he kept getting 100s so I kept dishing out the high 5's...  high 5's are a wonderful teaching tool)

Snack

Baked Lays 130 cal

Fruit Snack 200 cal (I thought it was 80 but then I looked at the serving size and it was 2.5...fuckers)

Dinner

Two veggie burgers 220 cal

Whole wheat pita 140 cal

Like 2 cups of brown rice

One tbsp ketchup

1/2 tbsp mayo

Oh yea I bought an iron before my class and then fucking left it in my classroom and realized this the minute I got home so I literally ran back to school.  Not the whole way... But I must have ran for two straight minutes.  So that was something.  

I really really really really really really really want to do two classes at the gym tomorrow.  Really really really badly.  I believe I can I believe I can.  I probably won't.  We shall see.