Can't stop eating

I feel fat.  Like my stomach will not go down.  What I ate today:

Breakfast

Special K w/skim

Fat free Activia 70 cal

Tall skim double latte 150 cal

Lunch

I was totally pressured into eating by the lady I work for

6 healthy nuggets... roughly 250 cal

Ketchup agh maybe 2 tb

Mozzarella stick I think 120 cal

Some red pepper

Some grapes

1/2 cup Ben and Jerrys froyo 180 cal

Snack

Strawberries

Some cantaloupe hardly any

One bagel bite

Dinner

Smart Ones 290

Whole wheat pita 140

Yogurt w/granola 200

No gym today... but it was a gor-ge-ous out today and apparently their apartment building has a playground so I took them out to play for like an hour and 15 minutes.  We played an intense game of tag and I made sure to actually run during it.  We also had a push up contest.  I did 20 (2 sets of 10).  Leila made sure to do 21.  Biotch.  I also did a lot of arm work while I watched them on the play... I did that thing where you put your legs out and like dip bending your arms.  Then I did it the other way like doing some chest presses.  Oh yea we also did like 50 jumping jacks.  Leila wanted to have a sit up contest but that's where I drew the line.  So at least I got some kind of exercise today.

I was supposed to hang out with this guy and we were going to smoke but I told him to forget it.  He wasn't gonna make it here til 9:30 (CPT that means 11 earliest) and I have to make it to the gym tomorrow and then write like 4 papers and I knew that would never happen if I smoked.  Plus I didn't want to smoke outside because someone got mugged outside my building last week so the po has been patrolling like crazy and I definitely didn't want to smoke in my room or have him in my room at all.  And my VH1 reality shows are on tonight.  I'm such a loser.  But at least I'm a loser that's not getting high.  

There is pizza in my refrigerator and it is KILLING me trying to resist eating it.  My roommate offered some to me yesterday.  I looked it up....  it's 360 for one slice.  Is it worth it?  I ate SO much today but I'm still hungry.  Like even after that dinner my stomach is growling.  And a freakin apple is not going to cut it.  OMG I can not eat that pizza.  I want it sooooo bad.  Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.  Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.  Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. 

I didn't eat the pizza.  I had 120 cal worth of raisins and I'm about to eat an orange.  Why am I so hungryyyyy?  I'm gonna try chugging some water.

Okay I have now updated this like 5 times.  I ate the orange.... AND a bowl of Special K............AND a Fiber One bar.  What is wrong with me?